love is watching somone die

I'm baaaaaaaaack

hey girl tell me what do you do?
bothing but im damn sure its more than you.
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holy fuck almight i have not made a set in months. well, BAM! here ya go kids. fuck yeah.

you have the chemicals that make me fall in love.
 
gah i love escape the fate. the first 2 albums are so bitchen. idk about this new one. but i really want to see them live.

Dear Mom & Dad
 
i hate you. i will put on a happy face when we have our friends or family over but i refuse live everyday as i lie. i resent you for shipping me off to boarding school. i hate you for being hypocryts and deneying that im miserbal. ive told you all of thisto your face and you still dont listen. i dont care about my future. i dont care about my friends or even music anymore. i know you just want to blame him for making me this miserbal but its not all his fault. i was miserbal before. it just hurt even more to be let down again. i wish you would listen to me. i want out of that school. i want you to take care of me in a way that will actually make me happy again and give my life some meaning. but i cant even hug you now without feeling disgusted. i hate you and i hate myself. im not blaming you for everything wrong in my life but dont even try to deny that your not part of the problem. shrikns dont help. pills dont help. im hopelss. just give up on me. im crazy. and im sorry. i know how much i hurt you on a regualr basis. i just dont care anymore.
 
your fucked up daughter
michelle
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woo! im a mess! i went to bed at 3 this morning. i woke up at 2. it was dark. i havent seen the sun in 24 hours. really fuckin weird.

the third installment of kickass blue hair

redheads

well ive found another guy. to bad he doesnt look like that hottie in the bottom right. oh well. hes cute and a sweetheart. hes probalyl gonna ask me out in the near future. woo! on the badside. life other than that is just miserbal. and we might be moving to new york? SO COLD. ugh. and just when im starting to make good friends. and get boyfriends. awsome.
but i did get called pretty today. it was the best thing that happend to me today. besides getting to spend an hour or two with him. i kinda ruined heart to heart he was gonna have with me cause of my tiny bladder. oh well. life goes on for now haha.
and tomorrows thanksgiving which is good and bad. good because my moms an awsome cook. bad because i have to be social and give thanks. and ik im a b!tch, but i really am not thankful for that much. and i have to deal with my aunt new cult of ginger children and husband. I will NOT be submitting to anyone in my wedding vows auntie. you lost so much of my respect that day.
 
p.s. might get my hair cut like that girl with the black hair? yes no?

I made these
if im lucky they will get used as part of the american idiot set? but im worried my entrys may have been to big? arg!?
what to you think?
any good?

I have two crushes...well three but the third one isnt really worth it
 
Dear Crush Numero Uno
Everyone in school agrees your gorgeous. My much prettier and older friend likes you along with plenty of other girls im sure. she probally has a chance with you. except she knows nothing about music and is complelt opposed to drugs. unlike you...and me. I hate having to pretend that i dont see you when you walk by me in the hall. after all im only a freshman and im have to stay in my place if i dont want more touble then i already have. but somtimes ill sneak a look at you and you catch my eye and i catch yours. and for that moment i feel like that if you would just give me a chance you might just might end up liking me. i think you are one of the most handsome boys i have ever met and you are a great musician. please give me a chance?
 
Daer Crush zwei
 
You also play bass. Your smart and cute and tall and have the best smile. you have a good heart and care about music and the arts. i hardly ever get to see you though. we both know you like me and i like you too but you want to wait untill you get your lisence to go out? neither of us like to text that much so somtimes i feel like were on separate plantets. stop sending mix signals and make up your mind? i want to be with you. you seem like a great guy who would actually take care of me. thanks.

hmm i think im bleaching my hair today. i did my bangs and it looks stupid so im gonna do my whole head. its gonna come out a reddish brown and then i think im gonna dye it bright red again. i love the black but im just tired of it. and it was his favorite color on me. my mourning period is over. on to the fuck you and get a new boyfriend period has begun.